At A Loss

I have so many thoughts running rapidly through my head right now, but as I try to organize them and put them down on paper, I am at a loss. How do you describe something that there are no right words for? This is my dilemma today, but I will do my best to give you a little glimpse into the chaos that is me right now.
Josh will be home in 2 days and a wake up, as he would phrase it. And I'm feeling a little overwhelmed. How would you feel if I told you John Travolta was coming to stay with you for a week and would be on your doorstep in only 2 days. You would probably be excited, nervous, anxious and a little sick to your stomach, not to mention the huge to-do list that would be forming in your head. And I guess to sum it up, that's about how I feel right now. Like someone amazing is coming and everything should be perfect. Like I should be perfect. And as thrilled as I am to see him, I am also nervous and scared of going to meet him as his plane lands. I am actually dreading the public reunion in which I know I will be sporting the ugly cry with all cameras pointed in my direction. I don't want to go.
I am so excited to see my other half. (I don't like the term better half. Josh rocks, but so do I.) But I have to wonder, what will it be like? Will we pick up right where we left off without missing a beat, or will it be awkward for a while as we adjust to each other again; as he molds himself back into our life that he has been absent from for so long? This is all new to us and I have no idea what to expect. We have heard countless stories about what a struggle it is when the guys first come home and how a lot of couples argue over everything. I just want him to be back and this whole thing to be behind us with as little turbulence as possible.

When I was in college, there was an Air Force wife (of a deployed officer) that was a member of my work-study. I can remember how nervous she was when her husband came home. She asked me to go to the mall with her and help her pick out something to wear, which I gladly did. And I remember thinking, what's the big deal? It's just your husband. How can you be nervous about seeing someone you're married to?
Thank the good Lord that I never said that to her! I am now that jittery, expectant wife and if those words were said to me, I would loudly yell, "Shut it! You don't know!"
So in a nutshell, that is me right now: excited, nervous, anxious and a little sick to my stomach.